Master Key

"Stop thinking....start doing....

You can't sit like this whole day and keep thinking. You need to act, quickly." He said.

She sat still..., thinking.

"Action....action....action....

drama....drama...drama...." He chanted animatedly.

"My hands aren't moving, my legs aren't moving, my mind is freezing....I am in a stupor...wake me up please....somebody put me into action....somebody please, please press the button." She replied, helplessly.

"There IS no button. I can't see any." He looked everywhere.

She gaped at him with unchanged expression.

"Waaait....I found something." He jumped as if he had found a switch to heaven.

She still gaped at him with an unchanged look on her face.

He went around her and wound the key several times till it could turn no more. She moved frenetically and started clapping. He jumped as she clapped and watched her with a jubilant smile. 

This was an everyday drama. He knew how to make her dance and when to make her dance. The key wasn't lost, it was in his hands. A slave to his wish, she gaped and danced with unchanged expression.

An unposted letter

To,

Death O' Death,
My Cold Prince,
Where art thou?

Your icy lips never felt
more warm and inviting,
Your freezing arms never seemed
more comforting than today.

Come claim me.
I wait for thee,
loveless and lifeless.
Come claim me before life re-claims me.

Yours,
Deadsoul

Aye Zindagi...

अभी मुझ में कहीं बाकी थोड़ी सी है ज़िन्दगी....
Somewhere there is some life left in me...

A lovely song couldn't help sharing it here. Lyrics of the song can be found here .

Melancholically Melodious

Good bye 2011

रो लेने दो आज हमे ज़ार ज़ार
सींचने दो तुम्हारे सीने को आज इक आखरी बार

Let me cry to my heart's content,
Let me drench your heart for the last time, today.

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उन जाते हुए लम्हों से कोई कह दो 

कि वो कुछ पलों के लिए रुक जाये 

जाते जाते मेरे कुछ यादों को अपने संग ले जाये 

और कुछ, जो वक़्त कि तिजोरी में बंद है, उन्हें रिहा कर जाये I

Somebody please ask the passing moments

to pause for a while,

to take away some of my memories with it

and release some that is locked in the chest of time. 

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I wish, I could ask time to just stop for me.....

Reclaiming her lost voice

Yesterday, when on the spur of the moment I wanted to sing. I tried and horribly messed it up, a song which I never went wrong with coz its a song which I used to sing as a lullaby for someone. It was only then I realized that it had been really long since I had sung for someone and that I have almost lost my voice (not my speech but the spontaneity and melody). Its not that I don't sing or hum but just that I have lost the urge/desire to sing for anyone, anymore. 

I recall the times when I used to be woken up in the middle of the night by my cellphone only to be told from the other end, in a groggy and tired voice, "heyy, I am not getting sleep, please sing for me.." and I used to simply smile instead of getting annoyed or fake anger for spoiling my sleep, at times but was always more than eager to lull him to sleep when he would request me to go on even after the song was over. I don't have a great voice (though some find it sweet) nor do I sing like a nightingale but the fact that he found my voice soothing and comforting was rewarding in itself. I don't know if he misses my voice or those grownup lullaby's but I do miss singing for someone.    

Here's the song which I tried to sing last night, "Lag ja gale se" from the movie "Woh Kaun Thi (1964)" :