I don't know where to begin. I am at a loss of words. My friend A. asked me to write it down but it was the last thing i wanted do. The pain and loss is personal so I did not want to write about it on a public domain. No idea, why i am still putting it down. Probably because she was persistent that it may lessen my grief or maybe i myself wanted to purge my feelings that i had kept it bundled up inside me all these days since the fateful day. But, can it lessen the grief? I have no idea. With each passing day it has been growing on me and the void stares back hauntingly.
This is for my li'l sis who left us on last Tuesday, 3rd August. She was my cousin but she meant to me more than words can express. I am still trying to grapple with the fact that she is no more. I was making elaborate plans and was waiting eagerly to meet her. Somehow i wasn't able to meet her when i had been home last time. I feel guilty that i had not made enough effort to meet her, had i then......
Life and death are the two truths of life, agreed but no amount of reasoning seem to console me or justify her death. She was only seven years old. Why SHE? is my only question. I wish i could move the hands of time backwards. I would have clasped her to my soul and wouldn't have allowed her to go away even for a second. I wish i could exchange places with her and comfort the grieving souls.
Bye my sweet angel. May your soul rest in peace.
Meet you soon...
Adios...
