Good bye 2011

रो लेने दो आज हमे ज़ार ज़ार
सींचने दो तुम्हारे सीने को आज इक आखरी बार

Let me cry to my heart's content,
Let me drench your heart for the last time, today.

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उन जाते हुए लम्हों से कोई कह दो 

कि वो कुछ पलों के लिए रुक जाये 

जाते जाते मेरे कुछ यादों को अपने संग ले जाये 

और कुछ, जो वक़्त कि तिजोरी में बंद है, उन्हें रिहा कर जाये I

Somebody please ask the passing moments

to pause for a while,

to take away some of my memories with it

and release some that is locked in the chest of time. 

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I wish, I could ask time to just stop for me.....

Reclaiming her lost voice

Yesterday, when on the spur of a moment I wanted to sing. I tried and horribly messed it up, a song which I never went wrong with coz it was a song which I used to sing as a lullaby for someone. It dawned on me that it had been really long since I had sung for someone and that I have almost lost my voice (not my speech but the spontaneity and melody). Its not that I don't sing or hum but just that I have lost the urge/desire to sing for anyone, anymore. 

I recall the times when I used to be woken up in the middle of night by my cellphone only to be told from the other end, in a groggy and tired voice, "heyy, I am not getting sleep, please sing for me.." I used to simply smile instead of getting annoyed but there were a couple of times when I had faked anger just to make him feel guilty though it was always a pleasure and I was more than eager to lull him to sleep whenever he asked me to go on and on till his mumblings turned into a gentle snore. I don't have a great voice (though some find it sweet) nor do I sing like a nightingale but the fact that he found my voice soothing and comforting was rewarding in itself. I don't know if he misses my voice or those grownup lullaby's but I do miss singing for someone.    

Here's the song which I tried to sing last night, "Lag ja gale se" from the movie "Woh Kaun Thi (1964)" :